Sunday, November 1, 2009




1st November 2009
Smiles.. so fake.. I can't believe i could actually fake out a smile.. I find it so hard to smile, but i still manage to smile.. What's gotten into me? I feel so fake.. I feel something amiss in me, but i just dunno what it is.. It just felt.. empty.. Would anyone even understands? God, i need to know what is it that is lacking in me.. I hate this feeling..

My birthday is slowly sneaking in. Would i be happy on that day? I really dunno.. Birthday.. Would it be the time where my answer is found? Or would it be just a usual day, faking my smiles and all? Just what is missing in my life.. I really dunno and i want to know..

Would my childhood dreams come true? Would i ever make it to Japan? Would i be able to learn Japanese? Would i ever become a Volunteer? Will i ever fulfil those in future? Future.. Dreams.. What are them exactly? Japan.. I will find some ways to go there..

じゃね!

"Something is missing.. It just felt so.. empty.."

-ABIGAIL-
夢なら愛したままで
realised@ 11:56 PM


*Profile*
*Name* Abigail マデリーン Lau Xin Yi
*Age* 15+
*Status* Single, Unavailable
*Birthdate* 22th November 1993
*Religion* Christian! Child of God! (:
*Fan of* Arashi, Ohno Satoshi, Sakurai Sho, Ninomiya Kazunari, Aiba Masaki, Matsumoto Jun (:, Hey! Say! JUMP!, Chinen Yuuri.
*Loves* 6.7!, 6.1, 6.5, GENERATIONS!, Puppies!, J.Drama, J.Music, ARASHI.



*Wishes*
#To learn Japanese, both speaking and writing in kanji
#Learn Piano! (:
#Imigrate to Japan
#Study in Japan
#Go overseas with the cell
#Go to Arashi's concert! (:
#Seeing the cell and zone slowly growing
#Open doors in Japan?
#Camera (:
#Help out in orphanage and old folk's home. (:


*Shows to watch*
*Uta no Onii-san (Ohno Satoshi)
*Maou (Ohno Satoshi)
*Tokio ep 10 (Sakurai Sho)
*Ryusei no Kizuna (Ninomiya)
*V no Arashi
*My Girl[Every Fri 10.30pm at TV Asahi](Aiba Masaki)
*The Quiz Show 2 (Sakurai Sho)
*Hana Yori Dango 1/2 (Matsumoto Jun)
*Yamada Taro Monogatari (Ninomiya and Sho)
*Yoiko no Mikata ep 4 (Sho)
*Stand Up (Ninomiya)
*Door to Door (Ninomiya)
*Namida wo Fuite
*Kindaichi Shonenn Jikenbo
*Kisarazu Cat's eye
*Minami-kun no Koibito
*Bambino
*Boku no Hatsukoi o Kimi ni Sasagu [I Give my First Love to you](Inoue Mao)
*Tengoku de Kimi ni Aetara [If i can meet you in Heaven] (Inoue Mao & Ninomiya)

*The Past*
October 2009 November 2009 December 2009
*Past*

*Links*
AMELINE
ALFRED
ELAINE
EILEEN
EUNICE
JUSTINA AKA MAIMAI(:
JOALINA(:
JONATHAN KOR(:
JEANETTE
KARMIN(:
LENA
MY CREATED STORY
NICHOLAS
PHEDRA
REGENA
SPF TEAM(:
SHANIKINS(:
SUREEN
TECK KONG
WEIYI
WANTING!
WENDY!(:
YI PING
YUI! (:
ZHIKANG AKA KANG GE(:
ZONE 6 FORUM(:



*Music*


MusicPlaylist
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