30th October 2009
Know what, sometimes, i just envy them alot. I really love to have this kind of friendship they have, but it's just too impossible, especially in this kind of reality. It's hard to find such close bonds. I think less than 10% of this world have this kind of strong bonds and they are one of the fews.
There are times i feel that our friendships will be as strong as the waves. But.. Maybe i'm wrong. Sometimes, when i want to talk to you about the problems i have, you weren't there for me.. Sometimes, when i feel like going out with you, there will sure to be some of your other friends too. You may not come across this, but i just wanna type this out. Maybe, you are having much fun as i do now.. But, i don't that's the kind of life you wanna live in, ne? Wakannai.. Only you yourself know. You write your own story, and me, writing my own story too. I choose to include God as the mastermind of my story. What about you? Are you still putting God in your life? It's hard to make choices, ne. You aren't sharing your problems with me anymore.. Maybe because i can't give you good advices? Or maybe i can't give you advices based on the worldly things instead of Holy things. Well, i don't know anymore. I feel the distance between us, what about you? Some of my friends says that i'm so stupid to be holding on to this friendship, it's not worth it. But it's not true, right? I still believe in you. I still believe that there's still hope for you. But the first thing you have to do is, make the right choice, step out of the self-condemning world, and believing again. Oh ya, and gomen for reading something without your permission.. But i hope you wouldn't mind.. Hope to talk and catch up with you soon.. You're very silly.. Seriously.. But if that's what you want, then what can i say? I choose to respect your decision as a buddy, but as a really good buddy, i wanna give you good advices.. But it's hard for you to listen to these advices, ne. What can i do? Look forward to a better future and hoping that one day, you would open your eyes to see the things that you have yet seen bahs. I hope you know who i am talking about. (: Beware of the person beside you. Don't them too much bahs. That's all i have to say..
Hope to get this kind of friendship too.. Sugoii ne! (:
ps. i'll be trying to type in some Japanese romaji too. sorry if it's disturbing. (:
じゃね!
"Friends.. What are friends, really.."
夢なら愛したままで
realised@ 1:39 AM
